I thought it was over. In fact, I was certain of it. I have two meticulously penned grids that resemble handwritten spreadsheets. They’re taped to the fridge.
I had polished off the highest priority item last week, with some satisfaction. All those financial statements taken care of, on my son’s behalf. I was moving on to other things. At last.
Except that I was wrong.
I was researching and prepping for a phone call, and my Internet connection went down. And stayed down. Frustrated, I went on with my day, without connectivity.
Il n’y a pas de hasard
My French friends love to tell me that there is a reason for everything. “Il n’y a pas de hasard” – there is no “chance”.
By late afternoon, something was nagging at me. And it had to do with all that paperwork, which I thought was behind me. I had checked and double checked everything. Why was a blinker suddenly going off in my body?
No worries, I told myself. I have until next week for what remains.
And then I stopped. I went straight to one particular folder, scanned my notes, saw that I did indeed have the rest of the week to finish, and I set the folder aside. Yet it still bothered me. So I picked up the phone, and eventually spoke to an administrator who informed me that the hard date, postmarked, was March 1. Period.
I glanced at the clock. I had just enough time to create one last letter, copy a document, and make a dash to the post office. And I made it. Just.
Today I ask myself: If the Internet hadn’t gone down? If my afternoon had played out differently?
Sometimes it’s an inner voice that we learn not to ignore. Sometimes it’s a sort of intuition, or sixth sense. There’s no way to explain it, but some of us not only trust it; we swear by it.
I frequently know when one of my sons needs me, who is calling when the phone rings, or something more mysterious – like yesterday – the folder that seemed to be whispering.
There’s certainly a difference between the inner voice and this sort of inexplicable intuition, but I’m a believer in both. In being open enough to these sensing mechanisms that remain more accessible than we realize.
- Do you pay attention to your sixth sense?
- Are you a believer in serendipity?
- What about “il n’y a pas de hasard?” – that everything is fated?