Yesterday I was doing some editing and talking on the phone, when I was told to look at the news. A man had taken hostages at the Discovery Channel just outside of Washington, DC. There was a gun, and possibly explosives. I got off the phone. I put on CNN. I watched, and then had [...]
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I don’t know when it happened, exactly. Whether I flipped a switch, or the lighting changed more gradually, as if a dimmer had slowly illuminated a new space. But I recognize that it happened some time ago, and it feels like a natural process – inhabiting this territory where the focus is off my experience [...]
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Posted in Lifestyle, Love, Morning Musing on Jul 12th, 2010
I recognized his writing immediately. His cursive was unmistakable. Even all these years later, I knew its wide, angular style.
He used to send love letters. I hadn’t seen them in years – not since the last time I was searching in my dresser and came across the small sheaf of envelopes tucked under photographs and [...]
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Oddities
I woke early, heart racing, dark dreams prickling – my own version of a global thriller, complete with missing mid-century masterpieces, a chase scene through a foreign airport, running for my life across an unknown border, and the face of the enemy in pursuit.
Frankly, I kept waiting for action hero Jason Bourne to pop up. [...]
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Posted in Love, Parenting on May 10th, 2010
There is something I am not seeing. There must be.
I am unable to fight back the waves. I erect a barrier, and it holds, briefly. Then it crumbles, and I am knocked down and submerged. I pull myself up and rebuild, as another wall of water rises beneath a deceptive sky. And I am down [...]
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When marriage ends
In my morning reading, I came across an article in Forbes Woman that struck a chord. It concerns Stacy Morrison, former Editor-in-Chief of Redbook, speaking about her divorce and its aftermath in her new book, Falling Apart in One Piece: One Optimist’s Journey Through the Hell of Divorce.
This isn’t the stuff of celebrity [...]
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It’s 6:00 a.m., and there’s nothing I can do.
I have coffee brewing. My first cup. Café au lait for my son, if he wants it. But I’m keeping my distance right now. And I can feel the knot in my stomach. The sense of helplessness.
He’s slamming doors and yelling at himself. Then he will [...]
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Do you think like a man?
Men do not equivocate. They do not couch their opinions in language that weakens the message. Women acquire softened speech, a habit of qualifying, and it pervades thought, feeling, and perception.
I am a woman. Yet I do not equivocate in my choice of words, my body language, or my decision-making. [...]
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A Stolen Life
In 1946, Bette Davis played a dual role in A Stolen Life, the story of identical twins with very different personalities. It is a melodramatic, predictable yet thoroughly enjoyable film that has always stuck with me. I imagine it is a desire to call upon my own evil twin, to give voice to [...]
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Those who provide the comforting advice that “one day, your kids will know what you gave up for them” are well-intentioned, and even kind. What parent doesn’t want to believe that appreciation will come for all our efforts, at some point in the future?
But I question the premise, the concept of eventual “justice” when [...]
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