I don’t know when it happened, exactly. Whether I flipped a switch, or the lighting changed more gradually, as if a dimmer had slowly illuminated a new space. But I recognize that it happened some time ago, and it feels like a natural process – inhabiting this territory where the focus is off my experience [...]
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Unguarded
I have been writing from an unguarded place, and I do not do so often. I am uncomfortable here; my survival depends on privacy, and my own ability to maintain a certain distance from approaching realities in order to persevere – the clarity of facts and figures, debt and expenses, and the clock ticking, all [...]
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Posted in Lifestyle, Other Stuff, Parenting on Aug 27th, 2010
We’d been at it for several hours, side by side, each of us on our laptops. Spread on the small ottoman pressing against my knees were stacks of old tax forms. On the chair beside me, two more folders with notes and figures.
We actually began the process days ago, but I couldn’t continue, and my [...]
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I am the face of the aftermath of divorce, the aftermath of layoff, the aftermath of defeat. I am the face of invisible illness, of piercing isolation, of daily hide-and-seek.
Would you know me if you saw me?
I am your neighbor, your colleague, your sister; I am the woman who yells at the cashier [...]
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Posted in Lifestyle, Parenting on Aug 25th, 2010
Believe me, my kids are no angels. They try my patience, drain my stores of energy, gnaw at my sleep, and keep trashing the space I’ve been trying to organize for months.
Kids driving you crazy?
I adore my sons. I write about them often. They do me proud, they challenge me, they have good hearts. My [...]
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The tale of 104-year old heiress, Huguette Clark, caught my fancy last week. Not only is this woman’s story rich with history, but it raises an extraordinary number of issues that are relevant to each of us as we deal with critical decisions in life: who to trust, minimizing family squabbling when we are gone, [...]
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When I was younger, easy fitness options were abundant. I was strong and vibrant, and health clubs were affordable. There were 5-mile hikes for pleasure, and there was disco! Not that I took advantage of dancing for fitness and enjoyment as much as I would have liked. Work was always pressing, and time, in short [...]
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Rain is streaming down the window panes. Less so than last night, but the morning sky remains an angry, bloated charcoal. The house sleeps, though I am awake. “It’s Saturday,” I remind myself, taking a deep breath. “I can do nothing.”
I sip my coffee. I listen to the quiet. I type an email to a [...]
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Posted in Lifestyle, Morning Musing on Aug 20th, 2010
I woke in the middle of the night not feeling well, knowing it was probably nothing but that I’d have to sit it out, and unable to sleep, I decided to do a little reading.
I flipped open my laptop, and found an amazing story on msnbc.com, about Huguette Clark, the reclusive 104-year old heiress who [...]
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Sometimes all it takes is a few words. Or an hour, even if it’s filled with 140-character communications, and they wind up being smart, provocative, and playful.
Last evening I hopped on Twitter, restlessly, after a long day. I was well aware that the pleasure of pondering and writing about contemporary art – my usual, on [...]
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